10/1/15 Daily Tarot Practice: One Card Spread

Today is a BIG day for me at my job. We are going to the all new coding system starting today, October 1st. It is up to me and four other people to get all the coding work done for all our offices. No one knows how it will work. It is kind of like having to translate what we have been doing every day into an entirely different language. On top of it all, the powers that be, have decided to keep a full patient load because they don't want to cause static with the doctors. All of this has been really scary for me. I have tried in the last few days not to let it worry me because truly there is nothing I can do, other than my best. But as the time to go into work gets closer and closer, I get more and more apprehensive... wondering if I will be able to keep up... wondering if I will translate the codes correctly... wondering if our claims will go through so the money will come in and everyone will get paid...

I decided to pull one card today, and holy crap, guess what I pulled?

The Card: Justice reversed.

 

First Impressions: Holy guacamole, Batman! I got it again! What the heck does it mean? Am I in trouble? It's a Major Arcana card and its reverse, so no doubt it is important and an issue I have been dealing with for quite a while. On top of which I got this card earlier this week regarding work. Does that mean I will get what I deserve? If so, did I not study enough? Will I crash and burn? This card has made me really apprehensive.

So a did a bit of reading. Normally, when doing my daily practice, I don't look up card meanings (since part of getting to know the decks is just looking to see what I see.) And I feel a bit better. This card is a positive card. It is about balance and fair distribution. Staying calm and making well thought out decisions. So, it seems to me, that Justice is telling me to calm down. I am weighed down my my apprehension and fear. I have to feel it and let it pass. My focus for today needs to be at keeping balanced and calm. Funny, the Anna K. guide mentioned the "fair distribution" and that will be something all of us will need to be aware of today since we don't want anyone to feel completely overwhelmed by the amount of work there is to do. Yes... this is an issue I have been struggling with more and more as today has come closer and closer. I need to be strong like Justice, wise and fair. And do my best. The cards will fall as they may (ha!).

Here's hoping you have a great first day of October!

 

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9/29/15 Daily Tarot Practice: Three Card Spread

I wanted something different today. I am unsure why. So I pulled out my "mixed" deck to see what would come up.

The cards: Justice, Knight of Swords, and Queen of Swords.

 

First Impressions: One Major Arcana card speaking of a long persisting issue. A "Big" issue. Two Sword cards dealing with daily issues. What struck me the most was that they all are holding swords pointing upwards. Important thoughts?

Justice. Whoa. So why is Justice coming up? My first thought was work. There have been lots of things going on that just haven't see fair or good. Could it mean that? Or could it mean that I need to put a blindfold on, experience what is going on in my life (and work) and take it for what it is... not see it through the lens (perspective) I have been viewing it... and give it a "fair" shake? The Knight of Swords is facing justice. He is active, ready to leap forward towards Justice. Is he fighting justice? Am I the Knight... am I fighting Justice? I am unsure right now what the Knight's quest and purpose is. I wonder if he even knows... or if he is riding off half cocked. Is that me? Am I riding off half cocked? Or is it a good and true fight he is riding into? If so, how does Justice fit in? Maybe I need to ride in and deal with my issues of Justice. Hmmmm. Then there is the Queen of Swords. She is calmly looking out at me. Holding her sword. She is prepared to use it but does so only after much consideration. This queen is my favorite, I love the snow scene behind her and she has such a strong, calm presence. I would like to be her. I would like to put what is going on in my life into perspective and be strong, calm but ready to act if the need arises.

It will be interesting to see how the day progresses. Happy Tuesday ya'll!

 

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9/28/15 My Daily Tarot Practice: One Card Draw and Tarot Book Discussion

This weekend I spent what little free-time I had looking for a Tarot book. I have plenty to use to look up meaning but I wanted more. I can't say exactly what I was looking for... just a way to make my practice and study deeper. My intention of learning Tarot was not for the fortune telling aspects of it. Maybe because I am 51, and so much has happened in my life already, I am not so interested in just finding out if this or that is going to happen. Or maybe its because I have learned sometimes it is better not to know. I have found that what I want is often times not the best option. Life has a way of playing out as it should, if I am only patient enough to let it unfold without mucking it up. And though I have been in this world 51 years I am still trying to learn that lesson: to have faith in life's unfolding and its better not to force my own will on a situation because it often (most of the time) only makes things more difficult (and botched up).

Instead, I would like the Tarot, for me, to be a way to become more spiritual, to become a better person. Tarot has a way of showing you the world or a problem in an entirely different perspective (78 different perspective, not counting reversals). I have not been so successful dealing with some life issues that have been a part of my life for quite a long time. I have come to think my way of seeing... life, my struggles, my issues, my relationships... is a big part of the cause. Maybe seeing from a different perspective will help.

I spent quite a while searching on Amazon for a e-book that might fill my need. I found one: Tarot of the Spirit by Pamela Eakins. Her book had lots of very positive reviews and seemed to be just what I was looking for. As I poured through the book I really liked the idea of Tarot as a tool for enlightenment down your spiritual path. As I read more, I began to realize that this book had been part of a tarot set which included its own highly specialized tarot deck. It was disappointing to find out that my own tarot deck wouldn't do and that to follow the "spiritual" path you had to use that particular deck and see the tarot cards in the particular way Ms. Eakins described them. I am not against Wands really being about Fire and every Wand card is a spiritual look at Fire. But it seemed like it only addressed one aspect of the card... an aspect that wasn't apparent in my tarot deck. I actually went on line and looked at the Tarot of the Spirit deck and it left me cold. I was disappointed, why couldn't Tarot of the Spirit somehow integrate all tarot decks with the spiritual practice the book was outlining?

Again, I searched. I found Tarot for Life: Reading the Cards for Everyday Guidance and Growth by Paul Quinn. It seems like it has a lot of spirituality and a more general perspective on tarot. I have only just started it but so far I am really happy with it. There is a great deal of good information and interesting examples of how to look at tarot and its meanings.

Today's card Draw is based on the first exercise in the book: Find you Inner Teacher. Using just the Major Arcana cards I will shuffle and draw one card. This card will represent the one aspect of myself that this book is inviting me to discover and develop. I will pull the card but have been asked not to look up its meaning, yet.

The Card: The Devil.

 

First Impressions: Just great! The creepiest card in the deck. The card I really, really don't like. But it is the card of bondage... addictive behavior. My relationship with food has bordered on addiction. I eat to soothe. To soothe the depression that has been a big part of my life for many years now. I have not found a way out from under the depression and reliance on food to combat it. Maybe this will be my time. Very interesting that this is the one card that pops up... hmmmmm.

 

It will be interesting to see how this card plays out as I continue to read Tarot for Life...

 

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9/26/15 Daily Tarot Practice: Tell A Story

The Cards: Ace of Coins, Death, 3 of Cups.

You have been worried about finances. They are a big part of your everyday life and things are about to change for the better. But in order for this change to come you have to let something go... something that is important, not a day to day issue, something that has encompassed your life for a long time. Could it be a belief? Maybe you believe that there is never enough money. You will have to find a way to let that belief go. When you do you will have a whole new positive relationship with money and your finances. And that is worth celebrating.

 

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9/25/2015 My Tarot Practice: One Card

It is Friday and I am very glad this week is over. I decided on a one card practice today... mainly because I am really tired this am and instead of going back to bed for a while before work, I promised myself I would at least do my daily practice.

The Card: 9 o Wands (again)

First Impression: Crap on a cracker, not this card again?

Immediately when I saw this card, my first thought was not again. "The Guard", great, am I going to need to be on guard again? What am I guarding against this time? I received this card last week when I was going through an extremely rough time at work. So is this a sign that it is going to be rough again? Or do I have to be on guard against myself?

 

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9/23/15 One Card Tarot Practice

Have to be at work early today, so it will be another One Card Practice.

The Card: 6 of Cups.

First Impression: This is a Minor Arcana so it will be about day to day life. It is a Cup so it will be about emotions.

There are a whole lot of beautiful flowers in this card - that must be a good sign. A boy gives a flower to a girl. Could I be expecting a gift? I know this card often times represents happy memories of the past or something from the past coming to positive fruition in the now. I am unsure how you "see" that in this card - I am sure the original Rider-Waite card probably portrays that a bit better. That is probably why it is a good idea to have a basic knowledge of general assigned meanings of each card. What images you will see on a particular card, from deck to deck, will vary. With that variance, some of the meanings that were apparent with the Rider-Waite deck, might not be so distinct. So why don't I learn with Rider-Waite? I have tried that. The people portrayed in the cards just don't do it for me. I love the landscapes but I am definitly uninspired by the people. My Morgan-Greer deck just makes me eager to practice every morning - something I had never been able to get myself to do with Rider-Waite.

It will be interesting to see what today will bring. Have a great day!

 

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Single Card Pull

Really down today. I am using my practices to add something positive to a seemingly very blue day. Today I will do a single pull. As I shuffle I will ask what can I do to feel better.

I shuffled my Morgan-Greer deck and this is the card I pulled.

The Card: 9 of Coins.

My first impressions. She's beautiful and that's my mother.

The woman on the card does not really look anything like my mother use to (she past away about ten years ago). It is more of a feeling. The flamboyant, lovely individualistic nature of the woman looking out from this card reminds me of my mother. Is my mother sending me her love? What can my mom teach me today? To just be who I am. To stand up for myself. It does make me feel better, at least a little bit, thinking about her.

Thats all for today. Have a good one.

 

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